another day

ok.. i'll definitely start reposting on monday. this weekend I've got so much studying to do it's just too intense.

thankfully i just got done cleaning my room, bathroom, sink area.... and i got all my receipts and paperwork in order! that's huge... because i used to be the most unorganized person ever.. but having 17 hours of classes, 20 hours of work, and all that studying (I try to study 2-5 hours per class so that's anywhere between 34-85 hours of studying). all that added up is around 71-122 hours a week. There's 168 hours in a week.. and I do try to get 8-10 hours of sleep a night. It makes for a BUSY week! But I enjoy it all....

ok.. back to studying!

day something

Pedometer: a hell of a lot!

I feel so defeated. I truly have never felt this defeated. I have lost some of my faith in one of the projects I wanted to do.

I wanted to start a NOW group in my community . . . but after I talked to my professor about everything, it might just too much - too quickly. I feel so defeated. I feel as thought I'm letting down future generations of students who are going to be coming to my campus. I'm hoping that this is just one of those moments that the devil is just messing with my mind - but I've got faith that something will start in this community. I've got hopes that this will start here on campus, and grow into the community - but who knows. I honestly could just be dreaming way too damn big, but who knows. Maybe I was suppose to dream big for a reason. Something will happen here. Damnit, something has to happen. Too often I walk around campus, and I just see women who are hurting. I have to do something.

I'll try to update my day counter later this weekend. I'm going to have a packed weekend of studying... so please forgive me.

I have been keeping a journal with me. There's where I've been writing a lot lately... simply because it's easier for me to write down my thoughts during the day, rather than wait till I get around my computer at night.

Ok, it's 10 p.m. and I need to get in bed..... tomorrow is going to be PACKED!

~one love

day 1,479

Pedometer: 5,939 steps (I know I did over 6k, I didn't wear my pedometer all day)

Today was good.. not great... just good. Work got canceled, so I lost out. I got caught up on all my work that I should have done this weekend, if it wasn't for FAY. My yard/helping my dad came first this weekend. A couple of trees fell on/around our house, so it was mostly just helping dad clean up. We got a lot done on Saturday afternoon, so Sunday dad just finished getting up all the piles that I had made, while I worked on my paper & packing up. I felt kinda bad that I didn't help Sunday, but he told me to work on my paper. I know I don't tell my parents enough how much I love them, so I'm going to start doing that.

As far as classes go, it was a blah day. My morning classes didn't do much for me, but thankfully my night class was great. I'm looking forward to tomorrow... french, study of history, work, and then working on my paper. I got a good feeling that my paper is going to be great.... I just got to start it. lol

I'm hoping the weekend will hurry up.. I got a lot of stuff I need to read/do.

day 1,480

I worked! Mostly just got the dorm room looking a little better. I bought a bookshelf, well my parents bought it but you get my drift, and that got a lot of my books in order. I feel kinda smart by having them all.... which is lame. Luckily, I got a good amount of stuff in my room done. I got a new bed layout - new sheets, comforter, the whole 9 yards.... thanks to the parents again. My mother totally redid my bedroom at home, which was a total surprise! Egyptian cotton sheets, air soft pillows, new curtains.... it was freaking sweet walking into a new room....

Didn't record my pedometer steps, but it was around 4k.