day something

Pedometer: a hell of a lot!

I feel so defeated. I truly have never felt this defeated. I have lost some of my faith in one of the projects I wanted to do.

I wanted to start a NOW group in my community . . . but after I talked to my professor about everything, it might just too much - too quickly. I feel so defeated. I feel as thought I'm letting down future generations of students who are going to be coming to my campus. I'm hoping that this is just one of those moments that the devil is just messing with my mind - but I've got faith that something will start in this community. I've got hopes that this will start here on campus, and grow into the community - but who knows. I honestly could just be dreaming way too damn big, but who knows. Maybe I was suppose to dream big for a reason. Something will happen here. Damnit, something has to happen. Too often I walk around campus, and I just see women who are hurting. I have to do something.

I'll try to update my day counter later this weekend. I'm going to have a packed weekend of studying... so please forgive me.

I have been keeping a journal with me. There's where I've been writing a lot lately... simply because it's easier for me to write down my thoughts during the day, rather than wait till I get around my computer at night.

Ok, it's 10 p.m. and I need to get in bed..... tomorrow is going to be PACKED!

~one love